Getting into an accident would not help her.
When Oakridge Market finally came into view, I turned into the parking lot too fast, pulled across two spaces, and left the car crooked with the driver’s door hanging open.
I ran inside.
A cashier near the entrance was folding a receipt into a tiny square while another employee pushed carts near the doors.
Somewhere near the bakery, a floor-cleaning machine backed up with a steady electronic beep.
The ordinary sounds made everything feel worse.
People were choosing cereal and comparing prices while I had no idea where my child was.
“Lily!”
I called her name near the registers.
Then again near customer service.
I checked the toy aisle first because she always slowed down there.
Nothing.
I ran to the restrooms and called through the doorway.
Nothing.
I checked every bench along the front windows.
Empty.
I was heading toward the seasonal section when I heard a sound beneath the store music.
Crying.
Not loud crying.
The exhausted kind a child makes after she has already been scared for too long.
I followed it toward a display of patio cushions near the seasonal doors.
Then I saw a pink sleeve behind the stack.
Lily was crouched on the floor with her knees pulled against her chest.
Her shoulders were jerking beneath her sweater.
One shoe was gone.
Her lips looked dry.
In one fist she was gripping a yellow price tag so tightly that the thin string had pressed a red line into her palm.
I dropped to the floor beside her.
She looked up, and the moment she recognized me, she threw both arms around my neck.
I held her so hard I had to remind myself to loosen my grip.
“I’m here,” I told her.
She buried her face against me.
Then she asked the question that changed everything.
“Why didn’t Aunt Megan come back?”
I pulled back enough to see her face.
“What do you mean?”
Lily wiped her cheek with the back of her hand.
She said Megan had told her to wait by the blue bench.
I wanted to ask twenty questions at once, but I knew Lily was frightened, thirsty, and exhausted.
I gave her water from the bottle in my purse.
I wrapped my cardigan around her shoulders.
Then I asked her to tell me only what she remembered.
She said she and Megan had argued near the frozen-food aisle.
Lily had wanted to call me.
Megan had become angry.
According to Lily, Megan pointed toward the bench and told her, “Stay there until you learn to listen.”
Then Megan pushed the grocery cart toward the checkout lanes.
Lily stayed.
Of course she stayed.
She was five years old, and an adult had told her not to move.
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