The Dress
I couldn’t get it over my hips.
I stood in my bedroom in my underwear with the dress bunched around my thighs like a deflated balloon. Midnight blue silk. A designer label I’d only ever seen in magazines. Tiny pearl buttons down the back. Beautiful.
And four sizes too small.
I pulled. I tugged. I sucked in my stomach and held my breath until I saw spots.
It wouldn’t go past my hips. Not an inch.
I heard a ripping sound. Tiny. A seam starting to go.
I stopped.
I stood there in front of the full-length mirror with my arms trapped in silk and my face red and my stretch marks showing, silver and pink across my belly, and my daughter crying in her crib in the next room.
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And I started to laugh.
Because if I didn’t laugh, I was going to cry. And I’d done enough crying in front of that mirror in the last five months.
My name is Jenna Ward. I’m thirty-two years old.
I’d had a baby five months earlier. A daughter. Hazel. Seven pounds, nine ounces. Dark hair. A grip like a little vise. She came three weeks early after nineteen hours of labor and an emergency C-section, and she was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen.
I gained forty-one pounds while I was pregnant with her.
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I’d lost eleven.
I peeled the dress off very slowly so I wouldn’t rip it. I laid it on the bed.
I looked at the tag.
Size 2.
I wear a 10. Sometimes a 12, now. Since Hazel.
My mother-in-law knows my size. She’s known it for six years. She asks every Christmas, so she can buy me sweaters I’ll never wear.
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I sat down on the edge of the bed next to the dress.
In the nursery, Hazel was still crying. I got up and went to her. I picked her up out of her crib. She was red-faced and furious, the way only a five-month-old can be furious. I sat down in the rocking chair by the window and fed her.
She calmed down. Her little hand curled around my finger.
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I looked down at her.
“Your grandmother,” I whispered, “is a piece of work.”
Hazel burped.
When Hazel was asleep again, I called Clara.
She answered on the second ring.
“Jenna, darling. Did the dress arrive?”
“It did,” I said. “Clara, I think there’s been some mistake. It’s a size two.”
“Yes?”
“I wear a ten. You know that.”
There was a pause.
Then she laughed. A light, tinkling laugh. Like ice in a glass.
“No, no, no,” she said. “There’s no mistake, sweetheart. That dress is exactly for you.”
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“It doesn’t fit.”
“Not yet,” Clara said. “But there are still two weeks before my party. So it’s time for you to finally lose some weight!”
My jaw nearly dropped.
“Clara,” I said slowly. “I had a baby five months ago.”
“I know, darling. I was there. I remember.” Another little laugh. “But five months is plenty of time. I was back in my jeans six weeks after Ryan was born.”
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“I had a C-section.”
“Well, that’s no excuse.”
I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t. My hand was shaking around the phone.
“Two weeks,” I said finally. “There’s no way I can lose enough weight in two weeks to fit into a size two. That’s not possible. That’s not healthy.”
“Well,” Clara said brightly, “now you’ll finally have some motivation, won’t you? Maybe it’s time to stop eating so much?”
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She hung up.
I sat on the edge of the bed for a long time.
I looked at the dress. Midnight blue silk. Pearl buttons. Beautiful.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
Then I looked away.
Clara Ward is sixty-four years old.
She’s five foot six and weighs maybe a hundred and ten pounds. She has silver-blonde hair she gets done every Thursday at a salon in Highland Park that charges three hundred dollars for a cut. She wears size two. She’s worn size two her whole life. She tells everybody.
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She’s been married to Philip Ward for forty years. Philip owns a commercial construction company in Dallas. Ward Building Group. They have a big house in University Park with columns out front and a fountain in the driveway and a pool nobody swims in.
They throw parties for everything. Birthdays. Anniversaries. The Fourth of July. The Kentucky Derby. Christmas. New Year’s. The first day of spring.
Big parties. Fancy ones. With caterers and valet parking and string quartets and ice sculptures.
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They’re wealthy. So for them, this is completely normal.
I met their son, Ryan, eight years ago at a friend’s wedding in Austin.
I was a bridesmaid in a terrible peach dress. He was a groomsman in a rented tux. We got stuck at the same table during dinner because neither of us had a date. He spilled red wine on my peach dress during the toast. He was mortified. He spent the next twenty minutes in the bathroom with me trying to get the stain out with club soda and a napkin.
It didn’t come out.
We laughed so hard we cried.
We danced every slow song that night. We got married two years later.
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Clara never liked me.
Not from the first day.
The first time I met her, at a Sunday brunch at the University Park house, she looked me up and down in the front hallway. My sundress. My sandals. My hair. My hips.
“Oh,” she said. “You’re… healthy.”
She said it with a smile.
I thought maybe she meant it nicely.
She didn’t.
I was always not good enough for her son.
I grew up in a little town called Mineola, in East Texas. My dad drove a feed truck. My mom worked at the Dollar General. I went to Texas A&M on scholarships and student loans. I’m a speech therapist. I work with kids who stutter and kids who can’t say their Rs and kids with autism who are learning to talk for the first time.
I love it.
Clara calls it “your little job.”
I didn’t cook right, according to Clara. I made too many casseroles. Too much Tex-Mex. Ryan grew up on French cuisine, Jenna. Real cooking.
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I didn’t clean right. Is that dust on your bookshelf? Do you even own a duster?
I didn’t dress right. Is that from Target? How… practical.
And, as Clara loved to say, at every family dinner, every holiday, every birthday:
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“My son has always deserved a better woman.”
She said it in front of Ryan. In front of Philip. In front of Ryan’s sister, Brooke. In front of the caterers.
She said it at our wedding.
At the reception. During her toast. Holding a glass of champagne.
“Ryan has always been the light of my life,” she said into the microphone. “He’s handsome. He’s brilliant. He’s kind. He could have married anyone.” She looked at me. She smiled. “And he chose Jenna.”
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Everybody laughed. They thought it was a joke.
It wasn’t.
But it got worse after I got pregnant.
Much worse.
At first, she was thrilled. Her first grandchild. She cried when we told her. She hugged Ryan for five minutes. She hugged me for about three seconds.
Then I started to show.
“Oh my,” she said at Thanksgiving. I was five months along. “You’re getting big, aren’t you? Are you sure there’s only one in there?”
“Eating for two doesn’t mean eating for five, Jenna,” she said at Christmas, watching me take a second helping of mashed potatoes.
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“Have you thought about a personal trainer?” she said at Easter. I was eight months pregnant. I could barely walk. “For after the baby. You’ll want to get your figure back fast. Men lose interest, you know.”
Ryan always said the same thing.
“Ignore her, babe. She doesn’t mean it. That’s just how she is.”
After Hazel was born, Clara came to the hospital.
She held Hazel for exactly four minutes. She took eleven photos for Instagram. She looked at me lying in the hospital bed, swollen and exhausted, with an incision across my stomach and my hair matted with sweat.
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“Well,” she said. “Now the hard work starts. Getting your body back.”
I’d been a mother for eighteen hours.
The comments never stopped.
“When was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror?” she said in January, when Hazel was six weeks old. “God, you can’t even fit into any normal clothes anymore!”
“My son needs an attractive woman,” she said in February. Standing in my kitchen while I washed bottles. “Not someone like you.”
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“Have you tried just eating less?” she said in March. “It’s really not complicated, darling. Calories in, calories out.”
I tried to ignore it.
I tried so hard.
I told myself she was old-fashioned. I told myself she came from a different generation. I told myself she didn’t know any better.
I told myself to keep the peace. For Ryan. For Hazel. For the family.
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But at night, after Hazel was asleep, I’d stand in front of the bathroom mirror and look at my stomach. At the silver stretch marks. At the pouch of skin that wouldn’t go away. At the C-section scar, still pink.
And I’d hear her voice.
Not someone like you.
Ryan supported me.
I want to be fair about that. He did. In every possible way. Except one.
He got up with Hazel in the night so I could sleep. He did the laundry. He cooked dinner. He held me when I cried in the shower for no reason at all, the way you do in the first few months after a baby.
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He told me I was beautiful. Every single day.
“You grew a human being, Jen,” he said. “You were cut open. You’re feeding her with your body. You’re the most incredible person I’ve ever met.”
He meant it. I knew he meant it.
But when his mother said something cruel, he never said a word to her.
Not once.
“I don’t want to start a fight,” he’d say afterward. “You know how she gets. It’s not worth it.”
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It’s not worth it.
I wondered, sometimes, if he meant the fight wasn’t worth it. Or I wasn’t.
The party was for Clara and Philip’s fortieth wedding anniversary.
They’d rented the whole restaurant. Le Château. A French place outside the city, out past Frisco, in the middle of a vineyard. Stone walls and candlelight and crystal chandeliers. It costs four hundred dollars a person just to walk in the door.
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They invited a hundred and fifty people.
There was a strict dress code. Printed on the invitation in silver script.
Ladies: Formal gowns in black or midnight blue only.
Gentlemen: Black tie.
Clara’s colors. Black and blue. To match the theme. Forty Years Under the Stars.
I’d been shopping for a dress for a week. I’d gone to three stores. Nothing fit right. Everything I tried on made me feel like a stuffed sausage.
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Then Clara called.
“Honey, I already ordered a dress for you. Don’t worry. It’ll be delivered soon.”
I was very surprised. Clara had never bought me anything that wasn’t a passive-aggressive sweater.
For one second, I thought maybe she was trying. Maybe Hazel had softened her. Maybe this was an olive branch.
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Then the dress arrived.
Size two.
There are still two weeks before my party. So it’s time for you to finally lose some weight.
That night, I showed Ryan the dress.
He held it up. He looked at the tag. He looked at me.
“Size two?” he said. “Babe, you were never a size two. Not even in college.”
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“I know.”
“Why would she…” He stopped. He saw my face.
“She did it on purpose,” I said. “She told me. She said I have two weeks to lose weight. She said maybe it’s time to stop eating so much.”
Ryan’s jaw tightened.
For a second, I thought he was going to pick up the phone. I thought he was going to call her. Finally. Finally say something.
He didn’t.
He put the dress down.
“Don’t pay attention to her,” he said. “Seriously. Just ignore it. We’ll go buy you a dress that fits. I don’t want to argue with her right before the party. It’s their fortieth. Dad’s been planning it for a year.”
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“Ryan—”
“Please, Jen,” he said. “Just this once. Let it go. For Dad.”
I looked at him for a long time.
“Okay,” I said.
We went to Nordstrom the next Saturday. Ryan held Hazel in the carrier on his chest while I tried on dresses.
I found one. Midnight blue. Size twelve. Simple. A wrap dress with three-quarter sleeves and a skirt that flared a little at the knees. Soft fabric. Forgiving. It hid my stomach. It made my waist look like a waist.
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I came out of the dressing room. Ryan was standing outside with Hazel asleep against his chest.
He looked at me.
“Wow,” he said quietly.
“Is it okay?”
“Jen,” he said. “You look beautiful.”
I looked in the three-way mirror. For the first time in five months, I didn’t hate what I saw.
The dress was two hundred and twenty dollars. On sale.
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I bought it.
I put Clara’s size-two dress back in the box it came in.
I didn’t return it. I couldn’t. There was no receipt. No return label. Just a packing slip.
I glanced at the packing slip before I put the lid on.
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Maison Lune Boutique — Highland Park, TX.
Order #48821.
1 — Evening Gown, Midnight Silk, Size 2 — $1,840.00.
Billed to: J. Ward.
Shipped to: 4412 Lakewood Blvd., Dallas, TX.
My address.
Billed to: J. Ward.
I stopped.
I looked at it again.
J. Ward.
Clara’s name is Clara. Philip’s name is Philip.
I’m the only J. Ward.
I didn’t think anything of it at the time. I thought maybe it was a mistake. A billing name field filled in wrong.
I put the packing slip in the box. I put the box on the top shelf of my closet.
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I forgot about it.
For eleven days.
But I need to tell you about March.
Because that’s where this really starts.
In March, when Hazel was two months old, Ryan and I decided to buy a house.
We’d been renting a little two-bedroom in Lakewood for five years. With a baby, it was getting tight. Hazel’s crib was in our bedroom. The washer and dryer were in a closet in the kitchen.
We’d been saving for six years. Every spare dollar. We had a down payment. Not much. Enough.
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We went to a mortgage broker. A young woman named Priya at a bank in Uptown. She ran our credit.
She looked at her screen for a long time.
Then she looked up at me.
“Mrs. Ward,” she said carefully. “Did you open three new credit cards in the last eighteen months? And a personal line of credit?”
I stared at her.
“No.”
“Are you sure? Maybe for the baby? Some people open cards for the store discounts.”
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“No,” I said. “I have one credit card. A Discover card. I’ve had it since college.”
Priya turned her monitor so I could see it.
Capital One Venture — Opened 09/2024 — Balance: $14,200.
Chase Sapphire — Opened 01/2025 — Balance: $18,900.
American Express Platinum — Opened 06/2025 — Balance: $11,400.
Personal Line of Credit, First National — Opened 08/2025 — Balance: $22,000.
All in my name. Jenna Marie Ward. With my Social Security number. My date of birth.
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Sixty-six thousand, five hundred dollars.
My credit score had dropped from 791 to 588.
“We can’t approve you,” Priya said gently. “Not with this. I’m so sorry.”
I sat in the car in the parking garage and shook.
Ryan sat in the driver’s seat with his hands on the wheel.
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“Somebody stole your identity,” he said slowly.
“Sixty-six thousand dollars, Ryan.”
“We’ll fix it. We’ll call the companies. We’ll report it.”
“Where are the bills going? Why haven’t I seen any of them?”
He didn’t have an answer.
I spent three weeks on the phone.
I called every company. Capital One. Chase. American Express. First National. I froze my credit at all three bureaus. I filed a report with the FTC.
Every single account had the same mailing address.
A P.O. box. At a UPS Store in Highland Park.
Box 1147.
The companies all said the same thing. They’d investigate. They’d flag the accounts as fraudulent. But they needed a police report.
So on March twenty-eighth, I went to the Dallas Police Department.
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The detective’s name was Anita Shah.
She was about forty-five. Sharp eyes. Gray streak in her black hair. A desk covered in file folders stacked a foot high.
She listened to everything. She looked at my credit report. She wrote down the P.O. box number.
“Highland Park,” she said. “That’s a pretty fancy zip code for an identity thief.”
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“Is that unusual?”
“Most of the time,” she said, “it’s somebody overseas. Russia. Nigeria. They buy your information on the dark web. They open accounts, max them out, disappear.” She tapped the credit report. “But this isn’t that. These cards were used locally. In Dallas. At real stores. With a real mailing address in one of the richest neighborhoods in Texas.”
She looked at me over her reading glasses.
“Mrs. Ward,” she said. “Who has your Social Security number?”
I thought about it.
My employer. The hospital where Hazel was born. My doctor. My dentist. The IRS. Ryan.
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“That’s it?” Detective Shah asked.
“I think so.”
“Think harder,” she said. “Anybody else? Anybody who’s helped you with paperwork? Loans? Leases? Anybody who’s ever asked for a copy of your driver’s license and your Social Security card?”
And I remembered.
October. Two years ago.
Ryan and I had been talking about buying a house even then. Before Hazel. Before I was pregnant. We’d mentioned it at Sunday dinner at the University Park house.
Clara had set down her fork.
“Well,” she said. “Philip and I could help with that.”
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Ryan stared at her. “Really?”
“Of course, darling. You’re our son. We’d love to help with a down payment. Twenty thousand. Maybe more.”
I couldn’t believe it. Neither could Ryan. He hugged her.
“There’s just some paperwork,” Clara said. “For the gift letter. The bank requires it when family gives money for a down payment. I’ll need copies of both your driver’s licenses. And your Social Security cards. And your last two tax returns.”
“Of course,” I said. “Whatever you need.”
We brought them over the next Sunday. In an envelope. Copies of everything. I handed them to her myself.
She put the envelope in her purse.
“Wonderful,” she said. “I’ll get this all set up with our banker.”
We never heard about it again.
Ryan asked once, a few months later. Clara said the market wasn’t right. Philip’s business was slow. Maybe next year.
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There was never a next year.
We bought our own house eventually. No. We didn’t. Because my credit was destroyed.
I told Detective Shah about the envelope.
She wrote it down. She didn’t say anything for a long time.
“Your mother-in-law,” she said finally.
“I don’t know,” I said. “I don’t… I can’t imagine. She’s rich. They’re rich. Why would she need to steal sixty-six thousand dollars from me?”
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Detective Shah looked at me.
“Mrs. Ward,” she said. “In my experience, the people who look the richest are sometimes the ones who are drowning the deepest.”
I didn’t tell Ryan about the envelope.
I don’t know why. I told myself I didn’t want to accuse his mother without proof. I told myself Detective Shah would figure it out.
Maybe I just couldn’t bear to say it out loud.
Detective Shah called me a few times over the summer. The investigation was slow. The credit card companies were cooperating, but slowly. The UPS Store wouldn’t release the name on the P.O. box without a subpoena. The subpoena took time.
“These things move slow,” she said. “But they move. Be patient.”
I was patient.
I paid my bills. I fought with the credit card companies. I watched my credit score crawl back up, point by point, as they removed the fraudulent accounts one by one.
And I went to Sunday dinner at the University Park house every week and sat across the table from Clara while she told me to stop eating so much.
The party was on a Saturday in October.
We got a babysitter for Hazel. Ryan’s college roommate’s wife, Tasha, who has three kids of her own and is unflappable.
I put on my midnight blue wrap dress. Size twelve. I did my hair. I put on the diamond studs Ryan gave me when Hazel was born.
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I looked in the mirror.
I looked good. I really did.
Ryan came up behind me in his tux. He put his arms around my waist. He kissed my neck.
“You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen,” he said.
I almost believed him.
Le Château was about forty minutes outside the city. A long, winding drive through vineyards. The sun was setting when we got there. The sky was orange and purple. The whole restaurant was lit up with white string lights.
There was valet parking. A man in a red jacket took our car keys.
Inside, it was even more beautiful. Stone walls. Crystal chandeliers. White tablecloths. Candles everywhere. A string quartet in the corner playing something I didn’t recognize. Waiters in black vests carrying trays of champagne.
A hundred and fifty people. All in black or midnight blue. Tuxedos and gowns. Diamonds and pearls.
And in the middle of it all, Clara.
She was wearing silver.
Not black. Not blue. Silver. A floor-length sequined gown that caught every candle in the room and threw the light back at you. Like a disco ball. She was the only person in the entire restaurant not wearing black or blue.
Because it was her party. And she made the rules. And the rules didn’t apply to her.
Philip stood beside her. Tall, gray, in a perfectly tailored tux. He looked tired. More tired than I’d ever seen him. He was smiling for the guests, but his eyes weren’t.
Clara saw us come in.
She looked at Ryan first. She lit up.
“My darling boy!” She hugged him. Kissed both his cheeks.
Then she looked at me.
She looked me up and down. Slowly. From my hair to my shoes and back up again. Lingering on my stomach. On my hips.
She raised one perfectly penciled eyebrow.
“Well,” she said. “I see you didn’t wear my dress.”
“It didn’t fit, Clara,” I said. “I told you.”
“That’s the point, darling.” She smiled. “It was supposed to motivate you.”
People were standing all around us.
Ryan’s Aunt Deborah. Philip’s business partner, a man named Roger Haines, and his wife. Three women from Clara’s garden club. Clara’s best friend, Pamela, who I’d met maybe twice.
All listening.
Clara reached out and fingered the fabric of my sleeve. Like she was checking the quality.
“Nordstrom?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“It looks cheap,” she said.
Somebody behind me laughed. Nervously.
“Mom,” Ryan said quietly. “Come on.”
Clara didn’t look at him. She was looking at me.
“You really should finally lose some weight,” she said. Loud enough for everybody to hear. “So you could at least be attractive to my son. It’s not too late, you know. Plenty of women get their figures back. You just have to want it.”
The whole circle went quiet.
I felt my face burn. All the way up to my hairline.
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I wanted the ground to swallow me whole.
I wanted to disappear. I wanted to be anywhere but standing in the middle of a candlelit French restaurant in a two-hundred-dollar dress that suddenly felt like a tent, with a hundred and fifty people in black and blue staring at me.
I looked at Ryan.
He was looking at the floor.
He didn’t say anything.
Again.
“Excuse me,” I said.
I turned around. I walked away. Fast. Through the crowd. Past the string quartet. Past the waiters with their silver trays.
I found the restroom down a stone hallway at the back of the restaurant. It was beautiful too. Marble sinks. Gold faucets. Fresh orchids in a vase. Soft lighting.
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I locked myself in the last stall.
I sat down on the closed toilet lid in my midnight blue dress.
I didn’t cry. I was too angry to cry.
I just sat there. Breathing. In and out. Trying to stop shaking.
I thought about Hazel. Asleep at home in her crib with Tasha. Five months old.
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I thought about her growing up. Sixteen years old. Standing in front of a mirror. Hearing some woman’s voice in her head. Not someone like you.
I thought, I will never let anybody say that to her.
Never.
And then I thought, But I let them say it to me.
A second later, I heard Clara scream.
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